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Name: Kelly
Birthday: 5/6/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: gaining humility, destroying pride, loving everyone, being joyful through trials, patiently awaiting God's plan for my future, becoming the person God wants me to be... it's not so easy
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  All4myKING1
Member Since:
12/14/2004
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| I'm not sure if anyone will read this, but I just have to get it out. I just went back and read my entries from October 2005. It has been a rough weekend for me emotionally. A friend's dad died on Friday and I don't really deal well with death. Just thinking about it shakes me up really bad. Not that my weekend at all compares with hers, but anyway... here is what I've got. Five and a half years ago my grandpa died of a sudden heart attack. Just over 2 years ago my uncle died after almost a month of full paralysis after a stroke. I don't know why it still gets to me so badly. I'm not really scared of death, I think I just don't know how to deal with it. I hate losing people I love. Even if I know that they are in Heaven, my heart still aches. I don't even really know why I feel the way I do right now. I can't explain it. Its like all of the emotions I had 5 years ago and 2 years ago just take over again. I want to let go and move on, but everytime I hear about death it just floods back over me again. | | |
| 142 days left by the way... | | |
| I have decided that in my final semester as a single person, I really want to start writing on my xanga again, so hopefully I can keep this up!! I hope everyone has had an amazing Christmas vacation. Mine has been crazy! My best friend in the whole wide world, the former Miss Hannah Louise Schubkegel became Mrs. Hannah Louise Sielatycki last week... which is going to take some getting used to. Watching a childhood friend get married is surreal. I still can't really grasp the fact that she is married. And as long as we're on the subject... I will be married in less than 5 months. Also I little strange. Don't get me wrong, I am SO ready and I cannot wait for May 27th to get here, but it is just hard to imagine something that huge changing in your life. Growing up is funny.
Complete change of subject... I got a new computer!! It is a MAC and I absolutely love it. It does take some getting used to though. Things just aren't the same as they are on a PC. Not to mention I have to get used to a new mouse and keyboard. I think I am doing pretty well though. Transferring files over has to be the most annoying thing in the world however!
So, hooray for weddings and marriage and new computers, and God's amazing grace! | | |
| It's official... less than 1 year until I get married!!!!
I am so excited! There is also less than a week until I leave for VA Beach. I am definately nervous and I don't really know what to expect. I just need to get down there and into the swing of things. Life here in Portage has been rocky for the last month, but I am trying to make an emotional recovery before I have to leave.
Back to me getting married... I think I have the dress, I am almost there anyway. It is a really hard thing to decide on, I mean, there are going to be hundreds of people starring at me and taking pictures of me in this dress... its gotta be GOOD!!
I've still gotta get out of my robe this fine mornin' so I am outta here, hope everyone is having an amazing summer. God bless!! | | |
| 390 days 'til I get MARRIED!!!!
That is barely even 1 year!! | | |
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